So things in my life have been moving at an accelerated rate.
I feel like once you know exactly what you want, and then make the decision to not settle for anything less then you end up rushing forward to get to it. Or at least that happened to me.
As you can tell by now, this will not be a normal post in which I try to convey ways to do something. I thought I would take a quick break to talk to you, my audience, and let you know how things have been going. And hopefully where they will continue to go.
This past December, I took 1 week to vacation in Puerto Rico to visit my dad. I brought my entire family (including my dog Gizmo) so they can see my origins. In observing my family interacting with the new setting, I deeply reflected on several things.
The first thing I observed was that they loved the island just as much as I do. My husband loved to be in the presence of my dad and his wife, and the warm, easy December weather that Puerto Rico has to offer (he's a December baby and always longed for warm weather on his birthday).
The second was the feelings that came from within me when I saw my family interact with my childhood home. It was like opening a secret door that I allowed them through. No one had ever seen or been to my grandparent's home from my adult life. It was sacred ground where only the elite were allowed to dwell. Now, with both grandparents gone and my uncle the only one inhibiting the home, it was nice for life to be brought back to it.
I told my husband one night while we were getting ready to sleep that if someone would've told me that I would be bringing my husband and 3 kids to the house in which I spent so many summers creating memories, I would've thought they were on some amazing drugs.
Nonetheless they were there, and they were filling me with that old nostalgic love that makes your heart swell and eyes water just a little bit.
This gave me a sense of urgency in a way. My grandparents passed in the home where they raised their 3 boys, while being cared for by my father. He was afforded the opportunity to take care of them in his retirement, which not many of us are in the position to do.
Working in skilled nursing facilities, I've seen it all. I've seen patients who have what seems like everyone come to see them, and others who feel like they were dropped off and abandoned. Life is hard for the latter, and healing does not come easy. Without support, most patients do not have the drive to continue the healing process. Although they may be in a nursing facility for physical healing, these individuals need psychological healing in order to be holistically cared for and leave to be a productive member of society.
These two images: that of my grandparents and the patients that I care for, made me think of the future in a way that I have not before. My father is not in any sense old. He's very healthy for his age and lives a very for filling life with his wife. The same with my mother, who is working and having a blast being a fun grandparent. However, time does continue to pass with the inviolable question lingering. What will happen to our love ones when they reach the age in which they can no longer care for themselves, or one another?
Well, me personally, I would like to be in a position in which I am able to care for them. After toying with the idea of working for another company remotely, I resolved to taking this blog a little more seriously then I have in the past. When I finally came to this conclusion I realized that I would need to invest time in making it work. And that is precisely what I have been doing.
Between blogging, managing my son's online athletic profile, and working full time, my life has completely accelerated forward at an alarming rate. What's most important is that I find myself extremely happy having periods of deep focus. I lose track of time during research hours, and have found a way of expression that gives me a sense of purpose.
What are somethings that you find make you deeply focused, allowing the world around you melt away? Comment below and maybe, just maybe you may find that you are able to make a career out of them after exploring the option.
Yaritza Ellison has been an nurse since 2010. She has been essential to the healing process of many and seeks to continue to do so. Her passion for mental health and self help literature has lead her to launch justyari.org, where she aspires to coach young ladies navigating through work-life balance.